mood swing

lately i feel so down, so confused, so week, so vulnerable

maybe due to the hormonal changes....maybe due to stress....maybe due to everything under the sun....

i lost my appetite...i lost my focus.....i lost my will to fight....suddenly i feel i'm not the same person anymore....

come to think about it, hey, there are so many unfortunate ppl out there! Why should i be feeling like i'm one of them?

i am blessed to have a beautiful family, two adorable and charming cupcakes, a job that provides everything for my family, a nice house to stay (soon!), a national car to drive etc

i have everything that i need...wake up!

what more do i need?

i just need to learn how to be grateful and continue spreading the positive vibes to ppl around me....Insha Allah

alhamdullilah

kita hanya merancang, Allah yang menentukan segalanya..

mungkin kita rasa kita belum bersedia, but Allah knows best.....

alhamdullilah, syukur ke atas segala rezeki yang telah dikurniakan oleh Mu ya Allah....

Adiy's going to nursery...

:'/

bibik udah kepulangan last week...maka nya, adiy harus dihantar ke nursery...huhuhuhu

lama jugak nk carik nursery/babysitter utk adiy nie...tp last skali, we've decided to send adiy to anya's school...senang sket...jimat masa mama & papa nk mengambil and menghantar ke satu tempat....actually school anya tak terima kids below 2yo...tp sbb adiy nie adik anya, so kira boleh la...lagipun adiy dah pandai jalan....

bermula la episod ibu mithali....hari2 bangun kul 6 pagi demi nk masakkan bubur untuk adiy tercinta...hahahaha....tahan 3 hari je kul 6 pagi, hari ke-4, mama overslept...tak sempat nk masak bubur....jenuh gak nk mencari bubur utk adiy nie, g petronas, yilek, g mcD yilek, sib baik ada kat restoren belangan section 7....phewwww....mekacih kat akak2 ofis yg bg panduan mencari bubur utk adiy...heheheh...esok cuti legaaaaa....

petang first day tu I tny feedback on adiy from the teacher....teacher ckp adiy ok, independent, nangis sket time bangun tido sbb tempat yg tak biasa kot and last but not least, BYK makan...hahahaha...segala sosej dia makan.....hmmmm, kalo dia dok ngn mama dia, mmg confirm tak dpt makan sosej tu...paling kuat pun bubur tambah jer...keh keh keh.....

naik keta, adiy n anya terus tido....penat seyhhhh

eid mubarak!

Lamanyer tak update blog...nampak sgt ke"busy"an tahap melampau kan....however, i hope its not to late to wish u "Selamat Hari Raya Eidul Fitri"

 *Camat ayi ayer*

Tahun nie tema biru....pagi first day raya ada di Ipoh, then dlm kul 3-4ptg tu bertolak balik ke Perlis...kereta ok....banyak, but moving...then raya ke3 g balik ke Ipoh....on the way balik tu, Papa singgah dkt Klinik Kesihatan Alor Star...ada job sket....papa ckp dlm 30 minit...tgk2 dkt 3 jam kami tunggu dlm klinik tu....phewwww....boleh imagine tak perangai anya & adiy after one hour waiting? menjerit, menangis, semua package lengkap...nurse2 yang lalu pun asyik tegur....

*kakak anya boringla tunggu papa*

on the way back to Ipoh tu, mmg jem ya amattttt..bertolak kul 5-5.30 ptg from alor setar, smpi ipoh nk dkt kul 11 mlm...sempat lagi ajak papa g tido hotel sementara nk tunggu jem reda...hahahaha....next balik putrajaya ari khamis...alhamdulilah, traffic smooth......


raya kali nie best sbb adiy dah pandai berjalan....tak larat nk mengejar dia...tp tetap best.....kakak Anya plak dah pandai nk melaram...nk gelang la, nk rantai la...bukan yg emas punya, tapi yg manik2 tu...pakai kejap jer, pastu dicampaknyer sesuka hati...hehehee....



okla...till next post...

happy birthday my dear adrianna & adiy

Happy birthday adrianna and adiy sayang...semoga adrianna & adiy membesar menjadi anak yang solehah dan soleh, taat pada perintah Allah, dengar kata mama & papa, belajar rajin-rajin, dikurniakan kesihatan yang baik dan membesar menjadi orang yang berguna. Mama loves both of you so much sayang....you are the most best things ever happen to me....

Sorry this year we cant over celebrate....we'v just lost your dear great grandmother.....semoga  roh arwah ditempatkan dikalangan orang-orang yang beriman dan solehah....amin....al fatihah to my dear maktok....

We held a small celebration at Adrianna nursery in the morning and at home in the evening...but Adrianna doesnt seem to enjoy the celebration at the nursery...she was busy tagging her papa and mama...fret that her papa and mama will leave her there....so after the small tea-break, adrianna follow me back home.....

for the celebration, i made baked macaroni and caramel cake for her....baked macaroni turn out to be ok but the caramel cake was a disaster....thats what happen when you blindly took the recipe from the net without trying it first.Luckily Secret Recipe opens at 10am...so sempat la papa go and grab one strawberry marshmellow cheesecake for Adrianna n her friends....

 

At the nursery

 Thank you aunty ja for sponsoring the baskin robin ice cream cake...

 At home

Happy birthday Darling!

My darling hubby turns 31 today...Happy birthday dear...hope u'l have a wonderful day today and for the rest of your life with us....thank you for always be there for us.....

For that, i dedicate this song for you....We love u so much PAPA!!!

From,
Your sweet wife, Anya & Adiy

"A Thousand Years"

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all he is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer

supplements

lately i'v been feeling a little bit tired....maybe its due to work or managing the kids, which i'm not sure which one, but i know i have to do something...

wanted to try the multivitamin....dunno which one to choose....so last sunday while browsing the vitamins shelf at watson, i opt for centrum...i used to take centrum lonnggggg time ago...haahahah...so i tot, mmmm, maybe i shd start to take it again...

at the payment counter, the cashier told me this..."kak, emmm, vitamins nie tak elok untuk kita org islam"...i was like....haaaa? betul ke? naper tak letak notification kat shelf tu.......the cashier said that, they have put something on the shelf, but i dont see them....i thanked her for telling me that....so cancel amik centrum....

this morning i saw one of my fren post at fb...she's one of shaklee's consultant...so i fb msg her...asking whether shaklee multivit...and yup, they do have...plus its halalan toyyiba...they even got a halal cert! that was a relieve.....my fren asked me whether is it ok me to swallon BIG pills? erkkkkk....of coz no....i had a hard time swallowing the gigantic calcium during my pregnancy...

then my fren suggested that i take meal shake....emmmmm....if i have to choose between a pil and a shake, i think i'l go with pil...its faster to swallow a pill than a glass full of vitamins....urghhhhh...but my fren promised me that the shake is tasty...even adrianna can take the shake....emmm....so i decided to go with the mealshake...cant wait for the shake to arrive my doorstep tommorrow....

will give my review on the shake next month...insyaAllah....if you want to know about the shake, u can go to my fren's blog here.

or u can read the benefit here:-

Complete Nutrients - Provides 24 types of A to Z essential vitamins, minerals and trace minerals. Deficiency in trace minerals will affects the absorption of vitamins and causes inactive enzymes. It also contains soy lecithin that works hand-in-hand with fat soluble vitamins.

Supplies Key nutrient to cells - Rich in protein (contain no lactose) that helps in forming skin, nails, hair, organs, blood, immunised cells etc.

Aids in Growing Up - Contains folic acid, biotin, rich in calcium and magnesium that are needed for building bones and cells in the growing up process.

Anti-Oxidants - Contains vitamins A, C, E, zinc, selenium which are the anti-oxidant components for anti-ageing.

Restore skin complexion - Contains complete vitamin B-Complex, iron, copper to form healthy red blood cells, thus improves the skin colour complexion.

Detoxification - Rich in soluble fibre that helps the (peristalsis of colon and stomach/bowel movement) to excrete excess fat and waste from the colon and stomach.

Great Taste for young and old - Delicious drink with natural fructose; quick replenishment of the necessary nutrients for the body; contain no artificial colouring and artificial sugar.

again....

Aci cleaner ofis dtg kat i this morning....

Aci : Adik, sori ganggu.....saya mau tanya...apa pasal muka adik banyak gemuk? ada baby ka?
Me  : hahahahahahahaha...(speechless)
Aci  : Saya ada perhati...ini satu dua bulan, muka adik banyak gemuk.....itu badan kurus, tp muka gemuk
Me  : emmmm.....tak pasti la plak....belum check lagi.....

adoyaiiiiiiiiii

posa

tired - penat - rasa nk pengsan.....hahahaha...mengalahkan budak baru belajar nk posa.....ye lar...byk hari lagi nie nk ganti...nie baru ari ke2...dah la last skali makan malam kul 8.30pm....sabar...sabar...30 minit je lagi nk bukak posa....dah order chicken foldover and ribena tanak ais from Papa......huhuhuhu....nyummmehhhh

Battleship

Been wanting to watch this movie for quite sometimes...managed to book & pay the tickets through GSC Cinema application using my Android phone on  Saturday....no more hassle...no more queeing up at the counter....i'm loving the latest technology!

so paid the tickets for 2 adults and 1 child ...thought of leaving adiy with yani the helper....but when Sunday came, nobody was at home....I was hesitant to leave adiy with yani...yani was good and nice too...but based on my previous experience with most of the helpers, i better not take risk.....so the four of us went to Alamanda to watch Battleship.....

Adiy was ok for the first 15 minutes....then he started to talk to the chairs and screen....oh gosh....i'm scared to look at other ppl....scared that they might blame me for bringing Adiy there....so i gave Adiy some nuggets to keep him busy.....but Adiy demanded more nuggets from me....i refuse to give him more coz nuggets is not that healty...so i took him out from the cinema.....try to get him to sleep.....after 10-15 minutes, i succeded! went back inside the cinema although i missed some parts of the movie....Adiy slept throughout the movie.....yeayyy

Anya behaved throughout the movie...she eats lots of nuggets and popcorn too...hahaha....so no problem of bringing her there again...

on the movie, overall is ok...not bad....maybe i cant really concentrate coz i'm busy making sure Adiy is comfortable sleeping on me and Adiy's ears are all covered and ...and Anya's ear tooo! i keep on elbowing my husband to remind him to cover Anya's ears...the sound effect are just too loud for the kids......i guess for the next movie, i should really2 ensure that somebody is at home so that i dont have to bring them to the cinema again...not that i dont want to bring them, its bcoz of the noise and the crappy food that we eat there...hahahaha...just wait till they are much older....

Bread & Butter Pudding by Chef Adrianna

Hari nie terasa nak makan bread & butter pudding...barang2 dah beli sejak minggu lepas...nie kali ke-2 ajar anya buat bread & butter pudding ("BBP")....anya really enjoy the mother-daughter bonding session...so tghhari tadi, time adiy tido, mama & anya mengerjakan BBP utk dimakan sebagai desert.....i think next time i'm going to take video of anya making BBP....

supaya tak lupa cane nk buat BBP, let me put the recipe here....

Ingredient:-

Pudding
10 pieces of bread
butter/margarine
2 eggs
0.8L fresh milk, or u can put 250ml whipped cream and 550ml fresh milk to make it more tasty
1-2 tablespoon sugar
vanilla essence


Sauce

2 table spoon custard
1 can of ideal milk
2-3 tablespoon of sugar

How to?
1. Spread one side of each piece of bread with butter or margarine

2. Slice each bread into few pieces

3. Put the eggs, milk and sugar in a bowl. Mix to blend well. Then, pour the milk mixture over bread. If you like raisin, u can put the raisin in between the bread.

4. Then, decorate your BBP! you can put almond, chocolate chips, chocolate rice, or anything on top of your BBP. U may also put some nutmeg and a bit of sugar on top of the BBP.

5. Set aside for 15 minutes for bread to absord the liquid.

6. Bake in oven for about 45-60 minutes, or until top is golden brown @ 180C

For the sauce, heat the whole ingredient in a saucepan over a medium heat until its slightly thick. Oh by the way, you may want to stir the custard with some milk first before you put the custard into the saucepan. Or else, you will be having some bump in ur sauce.

emm..i think thats all...pretty easy right? do try and let me know the result!

gua tensi!

gua tensi ya amat....dlm minggu nie, 2 org tanya gua samada gua pregnant ke? sentap hokey.....gua tau la perut gua mmg boncit...tp tak semestinya gua pregnant...cuma gua tak jaga pemakanan.....perut pun naik....corset pun dah lama tak pakai....huarghhhhhhh......macammana la ayat yg sesuai nk tny org tu pregnant ke tak without org tu sentap sbb dia tak pregnant? gua pun tatau....

mencik tau......mencik........hmmmm, should i test to confirm that i'm not pregnant???

positive vibes

Instead of thinking about what u r missing, try to thinking about what u have that everyone else is missing....

Oh this is so true! why do we always compare things that we dont have to others? Why dont we compare things that we have and others dont....by doing this, maybe we would be more thankful than we really are.....

frequently, we always say, it would be nice if we can get a bigger car or as big as Miss ABC....did u know that with bigger car, it would translate to bigger instalments, bigger maintenance amount, bigger hole in ur pocket and bigger petrol trunk? so lets be thankful to our little car for serving us without fail all these years....

sometimes we also wondering, we cant my daughter/son/husband/mother/father/sister/brother be like miss ABC's daughter/son/husband/mother/father/sister/brother? Hey, then ask urself this question, are u anything like Miss ABC? no right? so just be who you are and dont bother trying to change people for what they are not....look at the +ve sides, i'm sure your daughter/son/husband/mother/father/sister/brother is much more better than Miss ABC

tired of your work? i'm not going to say, FACE IT and GET OVER IT....no no no...i just want to say, what do you like to do? is it possible to turn you hobby/passion into something that can generate money? if yes, then resign and pursue your hobby/passion...take ur hobby/passion to the next level...nowadays, there's a lot of people with skills ie sewing, baking, cooking etc started a small business.....and thanks to internet, many of them have succeeded....

a little tips from me, the grass on the other side is not necessarily greener...u may try ur luck...but b4 u try, make sure u have sufficient emergency fund.

dalam hati ada taman?

Mama : Anya sayang sapa?
Anya : hmmm Muaz
Mama : takyah la syg Muaz, sayang mama yea....
Anya : tanakkkk...sayang Muaz
Mama : Anya sayang mama kan?
Anya : bukan laaaa...Anya sayang Muaz
Mama : Anya sayang papa yea
Anya : tanakkkk (and she started to cry!)
Mama : grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

on separate event,

Mama : Anya ramai kawan tak kat school?
Anya : hmmmmm
Mama : Sapa nama kawan2 Anya
Anya : Muaz
Mama : Lagi?
Anya : Muaz
Mama : Selain Muaz?
Anya : hmmmmmmm Muaz

next morning, sejurus lepas bgn tido she asked this,

Anya: Papa, Muaz mana?
Papa: mmmmmmmmmmm, muaz takde!

hahahahaa...adoyaiiiii....mama and papa mmg jeles betul dgn Muaz tau....asyik2 nama Muaz jer yg Anya ingat.....Mama ngn Papa cane??? itu belum 3 tahun lagi tu....ayoyoyoooooo

sejuk perut mama....

this weekend papa sibuk betul la melayan org2 korea tau...ari2 blk kul 12...by the time papa sampai umah, kami semua dah tido...esok paginya papa dah g plak...so on sunday, i buat2la nangis....tny anya cani,

mama: anya, mana papa? (huhuhu, sambil buat2 sedih)

anya : papa keja la syg...( hehehe...dia panggil kite syg blk...hahahah)

mama :mana papa...nak papaaaa

anya : mama tepon papa ye ( sambil carik handphone dlm bag and hulurkan kat mama)

mama : ok (start dialing an suddenly...)

anya: mama jgn nangis ye ( sambil mengusap2 pipi, konon2 nk kesatkan air mata yg xde nie.....

hahahahaha...mmg drama abis....mama syyyggggggg anya tau.....i love u anya n adiy.....tersentuh hati i bila anak plak buat camtu

bagai ketam mengajar anaknya berjalan

macam mana kita layan org, macam tu la org akan layan kita tau....takyah la susah2 nk kata kat org tu tak pandai jaga hati kita, lukakan hati kita, tak kenang budi, tak bertanggungjawab....muhasabah la diri sendiri cik kak, cik abang, cik adik weii..... tanya la diri sendiri, apa dah kita buat to deserve that kind of treatment? i'm sure u will say u do NOTHING expect for all good things that u'v done....yeah right...that's bcoz u r biased towards urself....u think ur so perfect.....try to look at different perspective bro.......

and one more thing, reverse psychology doesn't work on me! it will just boost up my ego which will eventually deter our relationship much further....so the best is KEEP QUITE AND MUHASABAH DIRI SENDIRI! salah org pandai jer nk carik...salah sendiri besar gajah tu, sikit pun tak nmpk.....

sekian. terima kasih. bluekkkk

sorry mood bengang di petang hari!

Positive vibes

Never let success get to your head and never let failure get to your heart. Everyday is a new beginning and new ending. Embrace it, make the best of it, smile and keep looking straight ahead!

source: marcandangel

trivia with anya

Mama : Anya, mama tak larat keja dah...Anya support mama boleh?
Anya : support?
Mama : Ye lar...mama dah tanak keja...boleh ke Anya support mama?
Anya : hmmm bolehhh (then she turns to her papa and ask this:)...papa, Papa boleh support
Anya?

mama + papa : hahahahaha.....bijak betul Anya kan.....

azam baru

today azam baru....semalam potong rambut pendek sama cam anya.....so today g ofis dgn rambut pendek and baju baru polka dot kaler purple yg dihadiahkan oleh ija siap ngn make up lagi....azam today ialah, tanak dah pikir yg negatif pasal keja...nk pk yg baik2 and positive jer.....

oh keja....i lap u la keja.....bersyukur la ada keja nie....kalo takde keja, ntah cane kehidupan kami sekeluarga.....terima kasih kepada Allah yang membuka pintu rezeki kami sekeluarga....alhamdullilah, rezeki kami sekeluarga setiap hari semakin murah........ dah, mulai hari ini, kite kena bljr BERSYUKUR.....BERSYUKUR di atas segala-galanya

cannot focus

today takleh nk buat keja satu pun...asyik memikirkan adiy dari pagi tadi....masuk pagi nie, dah 3 kali dia jatuh katil! sedih, menyesal, risau, segala2nya ada..... masa 2nd time Adiy jatuh tu dah nekad ckp lepas nie, dia kena tido bawah ngn papa & anya....tahan 2 minggu jer...pastu adiy naik tido atas katil ngn mama balik....

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....tension bila adiy gedebuk jatuh....dah tu terbangun lambat plak.....lagi la tension!...silap2 dpt surat cinta!....pagi nie semua benda rasa tak kena....sampai Anya pun kena marah ngn mama....sorry sayang...i dont mean to scold you....tapi bila mama pressure, mama mmg mcm nie....i'll try to control it next time ok...

so mission hari nie, nk carik tilam utk 3 beranak tido di bawah sementara mama nya tido sorg2 di atas katil bersaiz KING......sunyi rasanya.........

My new ambition....SAHM

So far Anya's very excited to go to her new school....no more crying. no more long face...for the first time, she's actually looking forward to go to her new school....that was a real relief to me...i cannot describe the feeling of sending her to her old nursery, where she would cry and scream before i send her off.....

Yesterday, Amir had an overnight outstation job in Kelantan...so me all ALONE with the kids on the working night doesnt seem very well....once, when amir had an outstation job, i forget to bring anya'a change n diapers bag to her nursery...i cant go back to pick up the bag as the journey would take abt 45 minutes....i told the teacher to borrow other kids diapers for that day and i'll replace it 2mr...huhuhu...

as my schedule will be haywired without Amir, i decided to take leave that day...i tot of skipping anya's school as well coz i need to drive 45 minutes from putrajaya to shah alam for her to be able to go to school....buttttttt, on thursday we got memo from her school teacher, requesting Anya to bring pot, cuttings, seeds and whatnot about gardening on the day she was supposed to skip school so that her mama can have longer sleep! hahaha

Amir asked me to send Anya for school that day....he wanted her daughter to learn something about gardening...he said, "kesian nanti kawan2 Anya ada pokok sorang satu, Anya takde"....huhuhuhu...so i said okkkkkkk....huhuhuh....

so D-day was a very hectic day for me...wake up morning to bath both anya n adiy, prepare anya's diaper bag, and off we go to shah alam...arrived at Anya's school, then told the teacher that i'm picking up Anya at 12pm instead of 5.30pm today, then went to office to settle some unfinished assignment, left office at 10am, then off to my maktok's house in klang with adiy n helper....chit chat with maktok, cook porridge for Adiy, had lunch at maktok'shouse and by 12.30pm, i'm on d road again to fetch Anya....got there at 1pm, then head to alamanda to buy some groceries...finished everything at 3.30pm, get home, play with the kids, jumping here and there and wait for papa to finish work....and i'm LOVING EVERY SECOND OF ITTTTT !

PAPA, can i be SAHM please...please...pleaseeeeeeeee...

Adrianna's going to school!

babies nowadays grow up so fast....they are no longer like what babies are last time.....thanks to the technology, they grown up to be 2-3 years older than their real age......whats worst, ppl start to send the kids to school at 2 nowadays...phewwww.....

looking at my cousins' sons & daughters, they can do spelling, recite some surah, know 1-50, aliff to ya and many more......well, anya also now a-z, 1-11 and sing "sedetik lebih" by anuar zain....hahahaha....looking at this scenario, i'm afraid that if i dont do something, adrianna will be left behind....but to send her to school at the age of 2 and half years is kind of disturbing....i want her to play and play at this age...but at the same time, i want her to be alert and play some educational games....

so how? i was looking for few kindergarden to send her....the famous kindy are like smar readers, aulad genius, littlecaliphs,qdees and many more....this kindy are more like school kindy where they have to learn based on workbook.... i wanted to send her to montessori kindy...the method that they use are quite different whereby they dont teach like normal school...here in montessori, they play play play and sing sing sing...hihihihi....u can google that up.....so after looking at few options, i'v shortlisted 2 islamic montessori kindy

1) nuh ark islamic montessori, seksyen 7 shah alam
2) brainy bunch islamic montessori, seksyen 3 shah alam

after looking at both places, we decided to send anya to nuh ark...the fees is not that cheap...but hey, thats y i need to work right? to give my baby anya and adiy a better education.....lets see if anya do have some improvement after going to the new kindy...i hope she can mix around with other kids pretty well.....

lets parteyyyyyyy

this year gonna be a unique year for my beloved ones....

papa amir will turn 31 this 14 june.......8 days later,

adrianna will turn 3 this 22 june..... 8 days later,

adiy will turn 1 this 30 june!!!!!

did u see the magic number 3-1? its going to be a once in a live time event....poor mama cud not celebrate together as mama was bon in april....huhuhuhu

so i was planning to throw a memorable party for the 3 musketeers.....got lots of list to do before D-Day arrive.....lets see

1. location -> preferable Shah Alam
2. date - > 23 or 24 June 2012 (saturday or sunday)
3. theme -> barney? sesame street? power puff girls? ben10? upin ipin?
4. food - > still deciding...but its going to have lotsa deserts for sure!
5. invitation list -> family and close friends ard 50 ppl

did i miss anything else? dunno where to start....so many things to do and i'm so impatient to organise my first event!

oh, as an accountant, lets do some budget planning first ya...hope i wont burst the budget!

The Reasons

They are the reason to why i work like there's no tomorrow

They are the reason to why i feel extremely happy when i get back home although i'v been working like mad and stressed up during the day

They are the reason to my success

They are the reasons that keep me strong and going, no matter what

They are the reason to everything in my life!!!!

Mama loves both of u very much sayang....no matter whats going to happen in 5,10,15,20 or even 100 years from now, you will still be my baby Anya & baby Adiy...

Niat

Got this quote from FB comments and feels like sharing this with everybody

Kita, sebagai ibu-bapa menjaga anak dgn baik bukan kerana mengharapkan mereka jaga kita bila kita tua dan uzur, tapi atas nama Allah, utk keredhaanNya.

actually this applies to our life...in whatever we do, whats really matters is our intention ("niat")...if we do something for the sake to get return, then just forget it....coz when we did not get the return as expected, we feel sad and start complaining/comparing/mengungkit....eventually, u didnt get the pahala that was promised, but dosa instead.....

most parents raised their kids for the sake of raising and in return hoping that their kids will look after them when they r old....there are also parents who treats their children as investment...the more children u have, the more money u can collect when they started working :D ....others just raise their kids sincerely...they look after their kids like the kids are the most precious thing that they ever had....me? hmmmmmm, i love my kids more than anyone love theirs....hihihih...

but do i ever think or hoping them to take care of me when i'm old? -> sometimes, YES

do i ever think of them as an investment in order to get return during my old time? -> not really coz i'm planning for my retirement...i hope i wouldnt be a burden to my kids...insyaAllah....

will i complaint/mengungkit to my kids if later they refuse to help me? emmmmm...cant tell coz the time has yet to arrive...i just hope that when the time comes, i can be patience and redha for whatever it is.......

its time for me to keep on reminding myself that whatever we do, we HAVE TO DO IT SINCERELY!!!!!!!Lets set our niat straight and pure ppl!

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Dear kiddo,

I love u guys very much...i hope i can set a good example to your guys...i will do my level best to raise u in the best manner...i know that i may not be a perfect mother, but i'm learning to be one with the help of your dearest papa...forgive me if i may get carried away in scolding u, sometimes i just forgot that u are just kids....i pray that you will grow up to become soleh & solehah muslim, respect your elders and may success and happiness be with you always...aminnnn

Wishlist 2012

Happy New Year everybody!!!...i'm sure masing2 sibuk dengan azam dan wishlist masing2....for me, this year gonna be a different year for me....b4 this, i never feel the need to have such to-do list and wishlist for next year...but having a larger family (mind u its 4 of us now...hihihih), there's a lot of things to do and a lot of things to catch up.........

For instance, i feel that the time for me and my children are very limited....my day starts at 6.30am, left the house at 7.30am, reach office abt 8.30am, finish work at 7.00pm (only if i'm lucky, if not, it will be 10-11pm) and only managed to hug and kiss my babies at 8pm plus until they go to bed at 12 am....so weekdays, i only spend about 5 out of 24 hours or 21% with my children....wowwww.....29% for sleep and the balance of 50% for work!!!! thats very unhealthy....something has to be done! so my first wishlist and to-do list for year 2012 isssssssss:-

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TO RESIGN FROM MY CURRENT JOB AND SPEND MORE TIME WITH MY BELOVED FAMILY!

To achieve this, i have to come out with masterplan.....cannot simply2 resign tau....hahahaha...later how to feed my two little muchkins? so what are my plans????

1. to potty train Anya coz that would translate to saving of $$$$$

2. make sure I have sufficient money in MY accounts to sustain for the next 6 months

3. to invest my spare money (less the #1 above) in low risk investment; preferable ASB...currently my portfolio varies from stock market, unit trust, property...but as i'm not going to earn any income for the next few months, its better to invest in low risk portfolio

4. to start up on my next project/business...currently i have an online tupperware business. perhaps i may want to set up a small bakery shop with my bff! u know who u r! hahahahha...or i can start to do some freelance accounting work....emmm....that would be good idea...so who need accounting svs, pls call me! would be more than happy to assist u

5. to cut down on unnecessary expenses...lately i notice i like to spend spend and spend....for the last 3 months, my credit card statements showed balances of >Rm2k....phewwww....3 months in a row with that kind of expenses is scary man!!!! u must be wondering what did i spend for last 3 months...hahahaha.....so from now, no more coach, no more jewelry, no more Little White Cafe, no more babies (the production is temporarily put on halt and to be continued after 3 years) hahahahaha

6. to ensure my hubby's boss increase his salary by 20%...hihihihi

i guess that is all i need for me to take a short break from the corporate world...all i'm asking is 6-12 months break from the datelines, board paper, reporting, bursa malaysia and audit.....its tiring and driving me nuts at times.....